they say it is bittersweet

i feel that many of us are struggling a bit with having to deal with the incredible joy of having Obama elected as president, and the shocking slap to the face that is Prop. 8.

Obama's election has marked a crucial moment for many of us skeptical of the future of America. It has given us renewed hope and optimism that I haven't seen pervade America since... well, never. As Ezra Klein said, it seems to mark a transition from the era of fear into what I would optimistically say is an era of hope.

However, the passing of Prop. 8 has created heartache that feels even sharper in contract to this incredible moment of hope. I imagine this is what it feels like to birth your baby the same moment your husband dies, like in those cheesy moments in dramas.

How have we broken down one of the biggest racial barriers in US, while at the same time denying another minority the right to marry whom they love? How have we told one person yes, yes, yes, you can, and the other, hellllllll no!?

I am feeling so confused. I'm crying with joy and crying with disappointment. either say, i'm crying. (again)